love...

since yesterday was valentine's day, it might be appropriate to write something about love. i love js and pbs with everything i am. i don't know what i would do without them.

at times i find myself not wanting to go on living because i'm so down from everyday life and other circumstances, but i know that i would never act on those feelings. i pray that God would take these discouraging thoughts away. i push them aside and decide to deal with them at a later time. so far, i'm not sure that i've actually dealt with them.

i really do love my life. i know it may not always sound like i do or that things aren't going my way but i really do love my life.

i love watching pbs grow into such the little charmer. although i'm a little nervous about what that will bring in his teenage years. i love watching him learn new things and listening to him form words, ideas and thoughts. he is so bright and always is learning, observing and soaking everything up just like a little sponge. i hope that the sponge never gets too full, that he will keep learning and soaking everything up always.

in the last couple of days, pbs has asked me a couple times if i would marry him. i have to smile and laugh a little at that, but i've told him that he has to talk to js about that. he asked js to marry him too. so cute and sweet!

life is all about love. we love our families, our friends, our jobs. sometimes there are actual objects that we love, but we call it sentimental value instead of love. i know that i'm more attached to people than i am to things and it's very difficult for me to watch someone who is more attached to objects than what really matters.

i love my family, immediate, extended and in-laws. it's often difficult to share that love from so many miles away but i feel it in my heart. i have many friends that i consider to be family. i love them all.

i hope that you had a wonderful valentine's day with your loved ones. love...