change happens

seasons change. hair colors change. fashions change. people change. friendships change. life changes, i should know since i am a full-time sahm. why is it so hard to realize sometimes that everything is changing?

growing up in the midwest, we saw the seasons change every year, like clockwork. we changed grades every year, possibly teachers and classrooms changed too. we change clothes out for the season and when we've outgrown them. but still it's hard to accept change sometimes.

four years on the east coast, three years on the west coast and now back on the east coast...that's a lot of change to deal with. the first four years on the east coast were filled with changing jobs, changing apartments, changing friends, changing life goals. the three years on the west coast were filled with changing roles in our marriage, changing ideas about having a family, changing the way i think about life. now back on the east coast and i'm still figuring out the changes that have taken place in the last several years.

i realize that change is in everything but to accept those changes is another thing. all of these changes happen for different reasons. i don't know what those reasons are, but i hope to see more change to learn those reasons. so for now, i will accept that change happens.

daily choices of a sahm

having moved coast to coast and back in the last four years, you'd think i could make a decision about what to do with pbs during the day. i mean, i was able to help in contributing to the decision to make those moves and several others. i have a college degree, so i know i can deal with challenging situations. but trying to decide what to do with a fourteen month old seems to be another story.

we live across the street from a shopping mall and not far from the metro. we do get out and go, so it's not like we sit in front of the tv all day long. although, some days that does happen...especially when the weather's not so good. we do watch "world world", "dinosaur train" and "chuggington". those seem to be his favorites. PBS and disney channel are our friends. the tv is on more for background noise than anything else. we read books over and over and over and over...his favorite is eric carle's "brown bear, brown bear what do you see?" between reading books, learning how to feed himself, playing with his toys and napping there doesn't seem to be much time for anything else some days.

we metro into old town alexandria, pentagon city, arlington cemetery, the national mall, tidal basin, etc. we go to museums, shops, parks. pbs gets to interact with other kids some in the nursery at church once a week. he seems to love being around the other kids and all the toys once he gets over the fact that we've left him for a little bit. i worry a little that he's not around other kids enough but i don't know how to fix this. i guess eventually he will get over being left in the nursery or with a babysitter. for now, we just feel bad for the the babysitters and nursery volunteers.

maybe the museums, shops, parks, etc. are more for me but i think that's ok. i need to be able to have adult conversation with other women and with js. it's been an interesting challenge to try to figure out but we're getting there. it's all in the daily choices we make.