improving vs. improvising

i recently started selling mary kay to help myself and family financially, mentally, emotionally. i haven't made a sale or held a class/party yet, but i will and am hoping that will help me feel better about signing up for this business. i question my abilities to be excited, outgoing and persuasive. i know i can do it, it's just a matter of growing my courage and getting out there. it helps me to know that i will be helping other women to feel beautiful inside and out by enhancing their natural beauty through the wonders of make-up and skin care. i hope to improve myself, get some "me time" and adult conversation by getting out more without pbs in tow. i love being able to take pbs to the museums, art exhibits, the zoo, shopping. he's improving his vocabulary and mind but we're also improvising on schedule and what we talk about and do every day.

if you've been reading this blog for any length of time, you know that js and i bought a house a couple of months ago and have been trying to fix it up to our liking. it's coming along, slowly but surely. i would much rather have some sort of super power where i could snap my fingers, twitch my nose or wiggle my ears and things would get done without having to do the actual work. i do like to start projects and i have a list a mile long already for us to do. it's the actual working on the project all the way to finish that i'm not too fond. i find myself getting bored halfway through and wanting to jump to something else or to start a new project. i end up have many projects going at the same time for this very reason. most of the time i do like the sense of accomplishment and achievement when i've finished a project, of course i probably already have plans to change or improve the finished product in the back of my mind.

js finished painting the walls in our room and pulled up the carpet to reveal beautiful hard wood floors. he's been doing a little each night when he comes home from work. he's exhausted because he's swamped at work and then he comes home to work some more. i will paint the trim either sometime this week or over the weekend. i guess we're improvising life to get to the finished product and final results.

we're improving the house, our family, our finances, etc. but are we improvising to get to the final outcome? i guess that's really how life goes. we're always trying to improve on something, be it our selves, our house. in school we're told that we can do better and to try to improve our grades and grow our basic knowledge. in our work we're reviewed and told to do things differently to improve upon existing systems, processes and procedures. i know in my home-life, i'm trying to figure out how i can improve as a mommy, a wife, a woman. really, isn't life just one big improvising session since we don't know what's coming around the next bend?