this weekend i'm going to boston, ma ... alone ... this will be the first time traveling by myself since pbs was born. i've left him for a few hours or a day at a time but have never been away from js and pbs more than that. i think i'm a little nervous. i'm meeting friends in boston so i won't be all alone.
before we had pbs, i would go on trips with girlfriends a few times a year. since pbs came along, i haven't done any of that. maybe this is exactly what i need. i've been feeling a little claustrophobic lately because of the weather, myself and other excuses. i love being with pbs and js all the time. i think i just need a little more time to myself once in a while.
it's my fault that i'm in this state of mind right now. after feeling like i was single for three years while js went to law school and like a single parent during the time he studied for the bar, i guess i feel like all of our time should be spent together and i have a very hard time doing anything for myself, by myself. it's kind of like we're still getting reacquainted and figuring out this parenting thing together. i'm sure that's hard to understand unless you've been through something similar.
so traveling ... alone ... i'll let you know how it goes!
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