retail therapy needed

before pbs was born , i was a "retail therapy" specialist. some people even referred to me as their "personal shopper". after pbs was born, i was home with him for the first couple of months. i went back to work until we moved in may 2010. sometimes after work i was able to stop at the mall before going home and would get a little "retail therapy" time. now, i can't remember the last time i had a successful retail therapy session without having pbs with me.

i don't want to pay for a babysitter so that i can have a retail therapy session. that could get pretty expensive. i feel like the weekends should be for family since js works all week and pbs and i are out and about playing tourist. so i don't feel right having js watch pbs, although he would and could. family time is very important to me. sometimes we end up going to the mall and other times we end up going to the Mall. i just don't feel right going to the mall for family time and that means that i am in need of some retail therapy.

how do i figure this out? how do i get over my guilt of leaving pbs and js alone on the weekend? maybe i need to schedule some me time and have that include retail therapy, maybe a hairapy session, girls' time, etc. maybe i need to schedule that time for one or two times a month. wouldn't i be a better mom if i had some time to myself?

retail therapy needed. a couple of casual-throw-on-whenever-dresses, some jeans, some cute tops, shoes, sandals, etc. the last time i bought any clothes for myself was in january! i was just replacing two tops that i already had. i did buy a cross-body bag in a fun, bright coral color a couple of weeks ago, but that was after much searching and researching online, at least a couple of months worth i'd have to say. i had pbs with me and he was getting hungry and impatient so there wasn't any shopping or browsing after that purchase had been made.

i guess my biggest hurdle will be getting over the guilt that i feel about leaving pbs. maybe that comes with the territory of being a mom or from having lost a baby early on. maybe i think nobody else can watch him better than i can. whatever the issue is, retail therapy is definitely needed.